A Paladin’s Preparation: The House Moving Engines have Begun, Feeling a Little Blue and Other Thoughts…

Even Jahna can get too tired of playing...

Even Jahna can get too tired of playing…

I feel like Jahna does up in that picture. Tired but with a full plate of work to do. My mother and I have begun preparations for moving to the new house in Cornelius. Quite a bit of work was already done before this week but this week involved a lot of the grunt work. The heavy, furniture-moving work will be done two weekends from now and our aim is to have most of this stuff ready to move before Veterans Day weekend. On Veterans Day weekend, we hope to get it all on the truck and/or cars and moved over. Our hope is that we’ll have all of our stuff in the new house (or storage) by Thanksgiving. I remain optimistic that we can accomplish these time tables. I just hope we get help on Veteran’s Day weekend.

Dangelus and I recorded another episode of TeknoCratik today. It was an off-the-cuff talk about our recent experiences with open source software & Linux as well as some Microsoft chitchat. I think you’ll enjoy it, I sure did :). It was supposed to be an interview with a friend of mine but he had personal things to attend to this week so we’ll be moving that to December by the looks of it. November is going to be hectic with the move going on and he’ll be busy as well. I’m hoping to do another TeknoCratik recording on one of the weekends before Thanksgiving but…we’ll see.

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I’ll be honest, I’ve been feeling blue for the past couple of days. I thought initially it was because I’ve had a slow week for the business and my job search. That tends to bother me when I don’t have progress on the job front but…I don’t think it’s that. I think it’s mostly due to me being back in Tillamook, with no friends to hang out with. To go from a house of 20 some people that I was getting along with to home….well….it’s just not the same. I don’t have personal friends to hang out with in Tillamook anymore. They’ve moved on and are doing their own thing. Something that I become acutely aware of at a recent wedding I attended… And I was just starting to make some in Eugene when I rip up my roots I was just making there and leave. It’s one of the reasons why I hesitated leaving Eugene. But my finances and sanity trumped those concerns…for better or worse.

It doesn’t help that I don’t have weekly multiplayer gaming sessions like I used to. I used to have sessions of Left for Dead 2 or AI War or whatever flavor of the month FPS game at least weekly but not anymore…. I feel left out. I feel alone. As stupid as that is, it’s what I feel. It’s not anybody’s fault that I’m out of the loop either…it’s just how things have worked out right now. I have great friends in Sweden that I used to game with frequently. But, gaming at 10am-3pm in the middle of the day (which is evening for them) isn’t conducive to a productive day for me. And….I haven’t had a solid base of US friends to game with in a very long time. I keep making European friends to game with but few US gaming friends. I don’t get how that works out, you know?

Maybe I’ve got too many things going on…maybe I shouldn’t be doing all of these Internet projects when I feel blue….maybe….but, there isn’t anything I can do about it. I have priorities right now. My loans, my job and moving my family out of this house. It all comes before any of that but…I just felt the need to write this out because it’s been bugging me for a few days and you know me. I need to blog about it or it’ll eat away at me. So, there you go. my thoughts on things going on for the past couple of days. I’m pushing forward but some days are harder than others.

I just realized….you’re all my unpaid therapists. xD.

Although I have to say, you all do an extremely lousy job when all you do is sit there and stare at me.

Then again, I don’t pay you so I guess expecting you to talk would be demanding too much.

Ah well ;).

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