Well, hello there. It’s been a while hasn’t it. Five months have passed since my regular Personal Musings stopped. So much has changed and happened in that span that I can’t hope to recount everything in this one post. Through all that has happened, I regret not blogging during that time. But, I’m back and I’m going to explain why I’ve been gone. I could just give you some flimsy reason like “real life got hard” but that’s a poor excuse and you know it. I know it. So here I am. To finally talk about it. However, I won’t get to everything that happened in this one post as I actually want to get this post out and get my blog rolling again. But over the next couple of days, I hope to talk about everything I can. I’m also a bit rusty at blogging so getting longer posts like I used to do regularly will take some time. So please bear with rusty blogging muscles and let’s begin.
It really all started back in January of this year. Things became difficult after my father died in January. Scratch that, life in general was falling apart. I was struggling with my courses at the University of Oregon more so than ever before. I was struggling to stay happy a lot of the time or keep focused on the task at hand. It got so bad that I eventually stopped doing the blog and channel. Activities that I had once found fun and engaging were nothing more than chores and I couldn’t do it anymore without it feeling like work. I put all my efforts towards finishing out school but nearly burned myself out by doing so. Winter term was really rough and Spring term was nearly as difficult but I passed my classes. I made it to the end. That’s all I can really ask of myself.
I was getting therapy during my Spring term as I knew I probably wouldn’t do well in Spring term if I didn’t do something to improve my situation. Through therapy, lots of prayer and introspection, I came to the conclusion that I needed to go on break from college again. If not permanently, then at least a year. So I’ve just not signed up for classes again and I’ve finished up my previous job I was hired at. Which really kills me because that job was my favorite job I’ve ever held. It made leaving UofO such a difficult decision because I didn’t want to lose that position. But it was a student job so unless I stayed on as a student, I couldn’t keep it. Thankfully, my job let me stay on as a part-time temporary IT worker until the end of August. So I’m grateful to them for giving me that opportunity. Now, the real challenge lies ahead.
I need to find a job and as soon as possible. After doing quite a bit of searching in Eugene, I had to come home because I didn’t have a job or a place to live. Yeah, I’m back in Tillamook again. A city that I just can’t seem to stay away from for long. But, I’ve expanded my job search and am looking harder and longer than before and I’m getting some good momentum on finding a new job. Nothing really solid at this point but a few hopefuls. I’m primarily looking for IT/tech support jobs right now. I want this to be my career. I want to advance this career of mine and be able to live on my own again. So I’m not looking at minimum wage/fast food jobs. I’m a little stressed and a little freaked out but, oddly enough, feeling confident. Confident that I will find something I want to do for a job. It’s a little weird for me to feel confident after all that has happened this year. 2013 hasn’t been kind to me.
If you’re curious about what I’ve been up to technology wise, well, I think I sum it up pretty well in our latest TeknoCratik podcast episode. But I’ll talk about this later this week. You can find our latest episode here:
Oh and yes, you can follow me and the TeknoCratik podcast on Google+ now. You really should check out G+ if you haven’t yet.
I haven’t had a lot of time to game and I’ve had even less to tinker with technology. Currently, I’m playing Papers, Please and The Witcher 2: Assassins of Kings. For the Witcher game, I’ve just been taking it slow. Drinking in the atmosphere and reading every piece of lore and book I can get my hands on in the game. On Papers, Please, I’ve been trying to complete it to get into the endless mode but haven’t quite gotten there yet.
Oh and I’m going to go ahead and reveal the next game review that I’m going to do. It’s called: Dust: An Elysian Tail. I’ve been sitting on the game for a while now so I have a lot of good thoughts about it. I don’t usually say what my next game is going to be because usually sometimes something goes wrong in the review process and I cancel doing it. This time however, I feel very confident that I’ll be reviewing Dust. I’ve also got a good idea for an enhanced format for future reviews that I think will up their overall quality. So stay tuned for that. My channel will also be starting up again soon and I’ll be working on a update video tomorrow, hopefully.
If you’re curious about the name of the post, “A Paladin’s ______:”, well, I’ve been struggling to come up with a new name for a blog series to replace my Personal Musings. This name, a Paladin ____ has been on my mind as a possible one to choose for a while now. I think it’s more flexible and personal than the previous title. This new series will build upon what I’ve learned from Personal Musings and you’ll see a very familiar format return as soon as I’ve gotten it figured all out. But as with anything I do, I like to iterate. So I might come up with a new name for it. Or change the entire format. Who knows?! It’s exciting to be back in the chair again. Blogging again. I’m glad to be back and I hope to do an even better job than before. Plus, I’ve got ideas on how to do that.
So, until the next time I publish a post, I wish you all a great 9/11. A date I will never forget.